I deleted the post I wrote earlier after getting a very mean comment. I guess we are all entitled to our opinions, but some people don't like it when others express their opinions that are negative. This is my blog. These are my thoughts. I don't live in a fairytale land where everything is fine and dandy. I am very happy for those people who do live in Lalaland where things are all peachy keen. I live in reality where life for many kids sucks. I live in reality where many kids won't make it no matter how much time, effort, love and care I give them. And it freakin' sucks. And I only have so much time to give each day without taking away from my daughter.
I was told that I must not love teaching and that hopefully my next career will be better for me. All I have to say is "BITE ME!". I love teaching with all my heart. Am I negative? Yep. But after 13 years of being crapped on by administrators, the state, parents and more, I get defensive. This is my chance to vent my frustrations without taking it out on my students. This is my chance to get rid of some of the stress from the day without my poor husband having to put up with it.
There is nothing more I would want to do in life. I laugh when people say that if they could, they would be a stay at home mom. I wouldn't. I love my daughter dearly, but my calling in life is to be a teacher. I am damn good at my job, but there are times I feel I am lacking. And when I want to vent, I get told that I am not a good teacher. First off, you don't know me. You don't know my school, my kids, or anything about me. To say I am not a good teacher would be like telling you that you are not a good parent, or sister, or teacher. It would hurt even though you don't know me. Second, you are not in my shoes. Yea, you may be a teacher. You may have similar kids. But you are not in my shoes. I would not tell you how to feel about your kids, don't tell me how to feel about mine.
If you don't like what I have to say, don't read my blog. I don't really care. This is more for me. It's my outlet. If you think I am a horrible person, then take me off your blogroll, don't read my blog and for heaven's sake, don't download anything else I make out of the kindness of my heart.
To me, blogland seems to be a bunch of people posting how great and wonderful they are and no one is sharing their true feelings. There are a few blogs out there where the teachers are truly wanting to share their ideas and frustractions. Unfortunately, one of the has already resigned. And I wonder what you all said about her and all her frustrations. Well, Uunderground Teacher, you are missed. I miss your honest accounts of the kids and how things are out in the real world. I wish there were more teachers like that who aren't afraid to share what it's like. But, if we continue to pretend that things are all great and happy all the time, it's no wonder government is OK with cutting our pay, cutting our budgets and letting people go.
I live in the real world and I teach in the real world. And unfortunately, sometimes, it's an ugly, cruel reality that the kids live in. It isn't pretty, it isn't fun and it sucks for all involved. Again, if you don't like what I have to say, then don't read my blog. It won't hurt my feelings. In fact, I may just keep reading your and send little rays of sunshine your way. Or, I'll skip you.